Well When We found out I was Pregnant Early February 2001 We were very excited. The pregnancy was quite a normal pregnancy. Not a single complication. Other than that of a normal pregnancy backache etc... Anyway 9 months of perfection. The family was making bets as to what the big day would be... Only one was right. That was Daddy. He bet his first son would be born on his 20th birthday. The evening Of Nov. 1 2001 Everything was fine I was 41 weeks and a few days pregnant and awaiting a stress test in the morning to make sure things were fine.. They planned to induce the next week if I hadnt gone into labor on my own by then. That evening My mom and I were watching Tyler Kicking my belly. It was very noticable. That morning I started getting contractions around 3am. I woke up daddy to tell him.. so he started timing them.. Called the dr. they told me to come on in.. So off we went to have our son. We arrived at the hospital checked in and all that good stuff. Finally got to my room changed into my gown went to the restroom and layed on the bed....
It doesn't seem like 6 years at all since I held you in my arms and touched your sweet soft face. I can still remember what you smelled like as I held you close to me and kissed your face. I remember your cute little ears and my toes that you had stolen from me. I remember like yesterday when the doctor gently lay you upon my chest so I could see my son for the very first time. I remember the heartache and emptiness I felt as the doctor did that ultrasound and mommy didnt see you moving or see your heart beating inside of me. I remember that feeling because it is still there just as strong as the day they told me. I remember laying on my side after the ultrasound praying to God to please just let me feel my son move please let these doctors be wrong. I prayed and cried and Begged. I waited until the moment of his birth to hear him cry. I still was praying and hoping the doctors were wrong. I still expected him to cry. I remember him coming out and I immediaty looked at him and listened carefully...
Hello Mommy, its me Tyler… I came to watch you sleep… I noticed you are crying…. Even in your dreams you weep… Mommy, I know your heart is aching… And you feel so empty inside…. I want you to know its not your fault… I know you really tried… Although you can not feel me…. And hold me in your embrace… I am still here Mommy…. I always leave sweet kisses on your face… While I was with you…. Although the time was brief… I never meant to make you cry… And suffer so much grief… I loved the time we shared… In your womb is where I layed… I know you wanted more… I know your dreams have begun to fade… I'm so glad God gave you me.…. You would have been great… Mommy, remember, you still are my Mother.… In the arms of Jesus Is where I wait… While I was on earth Your voice was loving and sweet… I heard the beating of your heart… Tummy to hand is where we would meet… You promised to give me the world… And Mommy, you gave me your all.… Now its my turn Mommy… I promise to catch you...[More]
